sometimes bad things happen so that a good thing can emerge. i dunno, i was watching "that's so raven" and that was the lesson of the show. except not in those exact words. but i think it's true, bad things happen so that something good can be born. yah, thought i'd share that.

Golden Brown by The Stranglers

Golden brown
texture like sun

Lays me down
with my mind she runs

Throughout the night
no need to fight

Never a frown
with golden brown.
Ev'ry time
just like the last

On her ship tied to the mast

To distant land
stakes both my hands

Never a frown
with golden brown.
Golden brown
finer temptress

Through the age she's heading west.
From far away
stays for a day

Never a frown
with golden brown.

Never a frown with golden brown

Never a frown with golden brown


*this is my fav song from my fav movie's (snatch) soundtrack

is it odd to have dreams where dead people are alive? about a couple of weeks ago, i had a dream where i was in stef's car, but i can't remember if it was the friday they passed away or not. i do remember sitting next to luke and talking to him. i think i was telling him how great he is. oh, i wish i could do that now.

a few days after, i dreamt that i was hanging out with stef, i can't remember what we were doing/where we going, but i was with her, and i think she was wearing the shirt she wore on the friday she passed away. it's so odd. i felt their presence all over again, and it truly felt real. i wish it was.

i haven't had a dream of da yet, so i hope i do. maybe these dreams are a sign that they are okay, but if i haven't had one of da, then does that mean she's not? no, that can't be, she was an awesome person. even though we had our differences in the caf. i'll miss those days. i wonder what da did with the "going-away" card i gave her the last day i saw her, i hope it's in her room somewhere. i did like the pic i put on it of her!

can anyone help me post pics on my blog? i do wanna post a couple of them.

YAY! i bought the franz ferdinand cd! yah, it's wicked awesome! but, if any of you are interested in buying it, maybe wait a week, it'll be 2 bucks cheaper at cdplus ($12.99). i paid $14.99 at the same store yesterday. i also got a free chocolate bar, i think that promotion goes on until they run out of chocolate bars. yah, the cd is great! i'm glad there are lyrics in the cd jacket, that REALLY helps. oh, if ur not sure who franz ferdinand is, they sing the song "take me out".

i just wanna say that in a little less than an hour, it will have been exactly 3 weeks since the accident. may u guys rest in peace, of which i know u will.

you know what's odd? stef was supposed to leave for england today! i can't believe it's been 3 weeks since the last day i saw them! that's freaky. i think i keep seeing people who look like either stef or luke around campus (mainly luke). man, this sucks. i want u guys to come back! please? oh what's the use, it'll never happen! oh well, i'm sure u guys are having a blast up there. it's nice how u guys left together, then ur none of u are alone.

WELL THE WINNER OF BIG BROTHER 5 IS....(drum roll)................................................................














DREW DANIELS!!!!


see this was how the voting process worked out:

ADRIA = michael
NATALIE = michael
KAREN = drew
MARVIN = drew
DIANE =drew
NAKOMIS =michael
WILL (tie breaker) = drew

yah, so that kinda sucked and what not. hehe, u know a show's fake when the last person to vote says, "oh i might be the tiebreaker".

i got to see drew's twin bro ben, but ben actually looked like a slightly shorter, and younger version of drew. hmmm... maybe they're not twins? i dunno. all i know is that if amanda did watch the show, she'd be happy that the "hot" guy won! hehe! yah, i was surprised how diane and drew weren't kissing and hugging at the end, she did vote for him and all! maybe if they do another big bro, they'll show a recap of drew's life the past year and she'll be apart of it (blech!).

yes, well, that was fun to watch. i'm so glad diane didn't win! i would have to scream!

YAY! TODAY IS THE FINALE OF BIG BROTHER 5! i know most/all of you don't care, but i do! so, will it be michael the 23-yr old poor cowboy who wants to provide a great life for his fiance and her son? or will it be drew, the 22-yr old recent college grad who a lot of girls have their eye on? i dunno, i guess i'll find out! hehe, if drew never had feelings for diane, then i'd still be interested (he's got good hair, duh!), so i want michael to win. i know it's all fake and what not, but this is the only reality show i like to watch from beginning to end.

hmmm... the jury consists of will, natalie and adria (the twins), marvin, karen (my fav from the beginning), jennifer (aka nakomis, michael's newly found half sis), and diane (drew's g/f, or maybe not anymore!).

the outcome of the game could be the most surprising of them all, but who knows? will diane vote for drew to have the $500, 000? or michael? btw, i'm SO glad that drew chose to take michael to the finals, not that bitch diane! sorry, i loathe and dispise her! i always have! she really needs a nose job! yes, she really does!

well, tune in tonight to find the winner of big bro 5!!!! ahhh, i know i will try, but if i can't watch it, i'll have to tape it!

hi! well, another day of school. today was okay, i guess. i hate how the uofa bookstore has a hidden line so that when u go to the till, u turn around and realize that u there are a ton of people behind u in line. it's not helpful when after u leave the till, the cashier says the line is back there! like, how does that help me! well, i wasted a chunk of time of which i could have put towards catching the 2:30pm bus. oh well, i was like 10 feet away and the bus decides to leave! dumb stuff! yah, i took the 3pm bus, and because poorna wasn't there, the bus was half empty! see, it's like that usually but when poorna told me it would be full or when she took it with me, it was full! oh well, i got a good seat and all. bio was odd. for some reason we had the other bio 108 prof teach us. infact, he's a MUCH better prof than mine. he makes bio interesting, the only problem is, is that he doesn't use a mic. i understood him, luckily. english was odd too. i thought the prof said she'd correct our first draft of our essay, but she didn't. today we had to write our revision-blech! when i handed in my revision, she told me "have a good weekend", but then she realized it was only monday! she seems nice, but i dunno how she marks, i guess i'll find out on wednesday! blah, i hate math, and i don't wanna go tomorrow! i really don't want my math assignment back, i know i did bad! luckily they mark the best 10 out of 11! so, i have to do good on the rest-bah!

has anyone else noticed that they play one song of sam roberts on the bear everday? i like that idea, it makes me happy! yes, well that's it for now!

wow! they played my song! hehe, yah in my first post of today i wrote that i was able to make a request to the bear for the song "remote control" by age of electric. and in less than a day (23 hrs or so) they played! i'm so glad i was able to hear it, i thought that i wouldn't be able to hear it! yay, that makes me happy! yes, well, yes.

oh yes, i have more to add. here are some portions of lyrics that remind me of the situation/u guys.

"never give up on the good times, living it up is a state of mind"-spice girls. i actually posted the lyrics to this song the day i found about the crash, like half an hour before. i didn't actually post this for any real purpose. i gave amanda a cd of spice girls songs the day before the accident, as a going away present. i also gave her a funny card. i even gave stef her b-day present (i'm still sorry about how late i was, stef) the day before the accident. i'm glad she got to wear the bracelet and all. i'm glad amanda got to hear the spice girls cd before she passed away.

"well that's all that you are, your just one shining star"-econoline crush. this song might not fit the mood, but u guys are shining stars now in the sky that is, looking down at us.

"goodbye my friend, i know you're gone, you said you're gone, but i can still feel you here"-spice girls. these lyrics suit me, cause i know u guys are gone, but i keep thinking ur not!

"it’s times like these you learn to live again, it’s times like these you give and give again. it’s times like these you learn to love again, it’s times like these time and time again"-foo fighters. i felt that this song should have been our grad song, oh well, i'm glad that we didn't have to listen to our grad song all that much. the grad dance was fun. we all had fun on the floor and stayed for the entire thing! even though da didn't dance with us, she produced some good pics/movies with my camera! thanks for the fun grad memories amanda! hehe. yah, i just like the lyrics to this song, it kinda suits the mood but i don't know.

"i can't believe the news today. i can't close my eyes and make it go away"-u2. i know this song is about a different thing, but it does fit, doesn't it?

okay, so that last post wasn't so quick! now here's a memorial type of post. if anyone wants to leave a comment regarding the late stef, amanda and luke, feel free to. of course, if u hate this post, then i'm sorry.

As we all know, stephanie wittenberg, luke franklin and amanda janes and lori flowers were all involved in a car crash on friday, september 3, 2004 at around 7:30 pm. stef (driver) and luke (passenger) died instantly, amanda (sitting behind luke) was rushed to hospital and had suffered severe brain damage. she was on a respirator and was pronounced legally dead on sunday, september 5, 2004. lori was the only survivor of the crash. she had some bruises and a concussion. however, she will now have the mental problems instead of the physical problems. she lost her good friends. don't worry, we're all here for u lori!

on tuesday, sept. 7, 04, a few of us went to see stef's body, it didn't look real, it looked like one of those wax statues. i kept seeing her breathe, but i know i'm wrong. i kept thinking that she was going to open her eyes and wake up! it was sad. and on wed, sept 8, 2004 at 1pm i went to the graveside service, that was sad too, and at 3 pm was her funeral. wow, i never knew that stef was so committed to her church, i had a hunch though. i had a cry after i hugged mrs. dear. but i still don't believe stef's gone! it was nice to go to earl's with the choir gang. i like hanging around people, it makes me feel happy.

on thursday, sept.9, 04, was amanda's funeral/body viewing. at 10am i saw her body, it seemed like a wax statue! and at 11am it was her funeral. the eulogies from her friends were nice. i'm surprised her mother was able to read a letter to her and not cry. that was brave of her. i still don't believe that amanda's gone too! it's strange, i never thought that this would happen to anyone!

on saturday, sept. 11, 04 (anniversary of 2001 terrorist attacks) was luke's funeral. lots of teachers were there, and a lot of students too. there was no body viewing, seeing as luke was cremated. the eulogies from friends were nice, i wish lori or i could have submitted some funny moments! oh well. a lot of us went to boston pizza after, that was nice to be with friends.

for that week or so, i saw the same people daily, it was nice/strange!

so, lets review the days of that week!

thursday, sept. 2, 04. this was the last day i saw all 3. lori was there too. we all (5 of us) went to ukranian village and then watched "along came polly" at stef's house. when there was about a half hour left, luke had to leave and go home. i think i said bye, but i'm not sure. i remember that we all went upstairs and either all of us went outside (in the pouring rain) or everyone except for stef and i. i can't remember. i hope i said bye to luke! after he left, the remaining 4 finished watching the movie. if i knew that stef/da/luke was leaving for good, i would have let them watch "ella enchanted" instead. sorry guys! after the movie, the 4 of us were tryin to figure out what to eat for supper. we finally agreed on "booster juice". what happened was that da's mom came to stef's house, and da was supposed to drop her mom back. after that, we (da driving) went to wal-mart to pick up da's glasses. stef and i bought mcflurries and da bought a burger. da had to go say bye to her pastor's family (she baby-sat their kids quite frequently). we ended up staying there for a huge chunk of the night! her pastor's wife made us dinner and the kids kept playing with us. they wanted to stay up late and play with da. that was so nice! see, amanda was supposed to leave for lethbridge on sat (2 days after). after that we all went home. the next day lou, da, ste and lo were supposed to go to pigeon lake and the airport for lunch.

friday, sept. 3, 04. i wasn't with them even though i was invited. i feel bad, because i really didn't have an excuse to go with them. however, my bro was coming into town, and i wanted to spend time with him, i only see him once a month. yes well, it's weird. see if i didn't go on thursday with those guys, i prolly would have gone with them on friday. that would have been weird, if i was in the car accident and i died, then my bro would come here and have to witness that. ur prolly thinking that i'm being selfish right now. believe me, i wish i did die instead of them. i'm the one who wanted to be gone from this world, not them. they had so much going for them, not me. oh well. now they can look after all of us! and i know they are in a great place! anyway, from what lori has told me, they went to lacombe in addition to pigeon lake because da wanted to leave a note for one of her friends there. and from what others have said, while stef was driving, the car slid into the shoulder, and while she was getting back into the lane, she crossed into oncoming traffic and hit a van. the van's people survived. apparently the weather was crappy (raining hard). i'm surprised they didn't wait for the rain to stop before they were to drive. oh well.

Saturday, sept. 4, 04. the day i found out about the news. i received a phone call from becca at about 7:20 pm. i just spent the day with my dad and bro, finding a car for my bro. moving on, becca was asking me if i had heard any strange phone calls lately. the first thing i thought was that she had been prank calling me or something. then she went on to say that she didn't want to be the one to tell me this and that i should sit down. my first instinct was that amanda was in a car accident on her way to lethbridge. i also thought that she wouldn't be the one to tell me this. either stef, luke or lori would. but i was sort of wrong. instead she told me that luke was in a car accident the night before and died. i didn't believe her. i thought she was playing some sort of sick cruel joke. but then i started to cry. and so did she. i was also told that people were getting together at laura's house and i went. it was strange. i was in the middle of dinner and i was going to go to mosque like 15 min after becca called me. actually my mom was sleeping and was going to get up a little later than she did. that was so odd! yah, i went to laura's house and a lot of people showed up. it was nice to see people i hadn't seen in a while, but it was for such a ridiculous circumstance! then people were asking me if i knew who was in the car and all. i told them that stef, amanda, and lori were. i told them that it was stef's car and most likely she was driving. that was a sad day. i can't believe that they died, i still don't believe it. i stayed over at laura's house. we talked about our weird memories of them all. luke gave me his grad pic a day before he died and i didn't read the back until saturday night. he wrote how we'll have more movie nights and all, and how we'll see each other in university. he also wrote how people born on v-day are the coolest! thanks luke!

Sunday, sept. 5, 04. i went to see lori. it turned out that she was the survivor and that amanda was in the hospital. it was sad to see lori. she just lost her best friends. she was walking on a cane and now, luckily, she can walk without it. she remembered the events before the accident, but couldn't remember the accident. she told me how she was sitting in the front seat for part of the trip, and how luke was sitting in the front seat during the accident. she also told me how they went to lacomb (sudden insert into their plans) and that they were either going to rocky mountain house for dinner, or were coming out of there (i can't remember). on this day i also saw stef's family. they seemed okay. but u can never be okay at a time like this. stef's mom told me how she was going to be buried in her grad dress. it is a pretty dress. i also went to luke's place and saw his family. mark was pretty upset, but i don't blame him. his friends were watching home movies of luke and mark. awww, that was nice to watch baby luke! that day was the first time i had ever met his parents!

Monday, sept. 6, 04. after my orientation at uofa, my mom and i went to amanda's house to see her family. her mother seemed strong, but i guess her family got to see her for a few more days than any of the other families. amanda's mom told me that "god must have a plan for you", that makes me sad and happy at the same time. i dunno, i feel bad that they are gone, but i feel kinda good that i'm still here. i'm glad lori survived! that was nice.

the rest of the days after this were the funeral days. it was nice how the papers and tv news kept mentioning the accident. it was odd how those 3 were picked. they were all 18 yrs old and each one of them was supposed to leave their parents-luke was moving into rez at uofa, amanda was moving to lethbridge and stef was going to england for bible school. it sucks how stef was going to be in england in less than 4 days from today! oh well, she's in heaven and that's far better! hmmm... i'm glad that all of them were religious and that their families are, this helps everyone get through the pain. as well, amanda was going to be a nurse, luke a family doctor and stef was thinking about being a paramedic. u would think that people who wanna save others would be allowed to live, not die! oh well.

i remember how the last day amanda gave me 2 hugs instead of one when she was dropping me off. and when i told stef bye, she said "i may not see you after this" and i was arguing with her "what do u mean? there's still 3 weeks until u go! we'll have to do something before then!" but she said "u never know, we might get busy or something". who knew that was a sign? i was also looking at the last posts of da and ste, and da wrote that "Well here's my first post from Lethbridge, though I am coming back before I'm gone forevs". gone forevs? is that not freaky? or what stef wrote on her blog, "Another reality is that we do miss people when they are gone, it’s human nature.Whether we like to admit it or not, it is also human nature to care, the hard part is finding the courage to demonstrate it". i dunno, that's kinda eerie. i dunno, i feel like these people had some idea that they were going. or when she said, "And you guys start on Monday...oh dear, what am I gonna do till I leave? You'll all be busy studying and stuff and I'll just like, never see you again". i dunno, it's freaky! yah, it's sad. that's all i have to say.

i'll miss u guys! next school year, luke, dan and i were planning to meet each other for coffee now and then. like dan said, we'll have coffee in your honour! we were all supposed to meet each other in december, and again in may or so. we were all supposed to talk about our new university career, but that'll never happen! i keep thinking i'll see luke in school tomorrow, or that i'll see all of them in december. oh well, it was nice meeting u guys and getting to know u. i'm glad i ended on a high note and wasn't evil to u guys. i'm sorry for anything bad i have said or done. sorry, i felt like i never fit in. but u guys were awesome, don't think that i never thought that! i'll miss amanda's dancing and obsession with guys and boy bands like hanson, i'll miss luke's accent, and his "hi i'm mark from vancouver" (canadian accent), and the elbow (dance move) and of course his passion for "s club 7". i'll miss stef's harmonizing abilities, our interesting choir moments (untying mrs. penner's shoes), her love for driving, and her kind, caring ability. u guys were awesome and very bright! i felt stupid around you guys because u were all so smart. u all had amazing talents and were great people, i wish i could have brought my camera on the last day i saw u guys. i don't have too many pics of luke or amanda, so that kinda sucks. it's also sad how both luke and stef just got their digital cameras and were so excited! i finally was able to see all of luke's pics from jasper, england and other places. i finally saw a pic of what his parents looked like! i'll miss the screwy spares lori, da and i had in the caf. da and i would argue over something stupid and lori would be the innocent, amused by-stander. i will not forget how da kept blurting out my crush for creamsoda during math and our spares. oh well, even though i hated that then, now it seems funny. i'm glad that stef got to see switchfoot before she left. she's loved them for like 6yrs, and that was nice how she saw them! too bad she died only a couple of days before the josh groban concert. even though i'm not a fan of his, i know that she would have loved it!

i guess ur deaths were an eyeopener to all of edmonton/sherwood park. u helped us realize that life is short and precious, so we must live it to the fullest like u guys did! u also got the government to start thinking about a car accident prevention thing. hey, maybe that's y u guys died, to help save others from the same fate. i dunno, but what i do know is that u guys were good people here on earth and are happy up there and are watching over/protecting us.

YOU WILL TRULY BE MISSED BY ALL!

yah, so if anyone wants to leave some nice comment in memory for the 3, then please do. i might have more to add later in the week, i dunno. i hope u are all doing well!

Wow, it's been a long time since i last posted. K, i'll do a quick post of the happier side of the last few weeks.

Monday, sept. 6 (labour day), 2004 i had my first day of orientation for UofA. well, i met people who weren't in any of my classes, and really had an okay time. it's not fun when u have to play games that require u to sit on others, and at the same time u have people, of which one u don't personally like, watch u!

Tuesday, sept. 7, 2004 i went to half of orientation, but it was okay, i found out a lot about the uofa clubs. i signed up for an audition for uofa mixed chorus, and i signed up for the fraternities. the sad thing about the fraternities is that they take up too much time so i can't join them.

Wednesday, sept. 8, 2004 it was the first day of school but i couldn't go. my sched is nice. i start at 10am on M/W/F and end on those days at 2pm except for wed-3pm.

Thursday, sept. 9, 2004 it was the 2nd day of school but i couldn't go again. on this day i only had math, but soon i'll have labs-ewww! so yah, i start Tues/Thurs at 11am and finish at 5pm.

Friday, sept. 10, 2004 my first actual day of school! i'm so glad that most of the teachers put up their notes on the internet! that's so helpful! well, it's no picnic getting lost on campus! i missed my english class (they switched the rooms and i didn't know) because i was looking for my room. it took me 50min to do that, when infact the new room is like a 5 minute walk from my previous class! oh well! i also missed bio because i was looking for my class. i found it, but i didn't wanna walk in. the class is huge, and u can only find seats in the middle of rows, so i didn't wanna disturb the entire class. crummy weather doesn't help u get through the day either!

Now my 2nd week of school (first full week) was better. i met some people, and am now able to find my classes properly without being late! yay! i like psych 104, the prof makes it interesting! i do miss the psych class in high school where laura and i would talk and mr. ralph would teach us weird things! too bad we never got the schitzo ( i know that's spelt wrong) and the transgenders for a presentation. that would have been interesting. i overuse the word "interesting". i think a lot of people do. yah, i made it into the uofa mixed chorus (uamc). it's cool! for those of u reading this and are/were in choir, kristen kawecki is the president, i'm kinda surprised she remembers me. but that's cool. yah, and martin's there. he talked to me yesterday (we have wed/sat rehearsals), so that was nice. i met some new people, and becca also joined the choir, so that's awesome! yah, i'm an alto 1, i like that part. hehe, we get to sing "loch lomand" but i don't think we'll be doing that until spring. we also go on tour after spring exams, i'm excited for that. i kinda wished that i went to camp jamia (ismaili camp) because then i could meet the new ismailis, oh well. i do need to do homework! the only subject of which i have real homework in, is math! i hate math 114! it's evil! in a sense i wish that had taken math 113, but i don't wanna do a lab, and they say math 114 is better in preparing u for math 115. unless i was lied to, which is highly possible!

yah, so tomorrow is a new school week. my bio lab starts on thursday, but i don't have a chem lab until the week after! yes! i don't like physics, and we have to learn some physics in chem right now-ewww! yah, well whatevs. i don't wanna get my english essay back. she said that she's going to mark the edited version, but i still don't think she'll like my rough copy! i didn't really write an essay, it seemed to be more of a story! i dunno!

Saturday, sept. 18, 2004 was interesting. i usually call the bear for their "saturdy night all request bear bash" and for the first time, i got through! i asked the guy (this wasn't the actual dj) if they could play "remote control" by age of electric. he said "i sure can" but they never actually played the song! unless they played it in the 2 minutes i wasn't listening to the radio! but the song is longer than that! oh well, they did rebound when i heard "sunday bloody sunday" by u2 on the station! yah, see i lost my burned cd of songs and that song was on it, so i really get excited when they play that u2 song (it's rarely on the radio). luckily for me, i found my list of the songs on that cd, and was able to re-download the same songs and make another cd. i even found some better versions of some of the songs!

hmmm.... about 2 months ago, the song "take me out" by franz ferdinand was playing on the radio quite frequently and i fell in love with it! i couldn't find a proper downloadable version of the song. then about a month ago, the bear stopped playing it. and a couple of weeks ago, it was on like 3 or4 times a day on the bear, and now it's everywhere! the sad part is that 96x is playing it too, so i know i'll get sick of it soon if i keep hearing it (that station plays the same songs over and over again)! yes, well i still haven't found a downloadable version of the song!

that's it for the good things, i think!

Never Give Up On The Good Times by The Spice Girls

Whoo,

She used to be a chancer, sparkle in the rain, Told me she needed a friend,
If she's going crazy, baby's on the way, Seems like the day never ends,

Everybody needs some affection [Ah ah ah],
Never shines [never shines] gotta try [gotta try],
Wherever you're going,

Never give up on the good times,
gotta believe in the love you find [Never give it up no, Never give it up no oh oh],
Never give up on the good times, living it up is a state of mind
[Never give it up no, Never give it up no oh oh],

Bossanova baby, heart is never soul, Shouting but he's never heard,
Eyes all wide and open, streets are paved with gold,
Someone come back on their ward,

Everybody needs some affection [Ah ah ah],
Never shines [never shines] gotta try [gotta try],
Wherever you're going,

Never give up on the good times, gotta believe in the love you find
[Never give it up no, Never give it up no oh oh],
Never give up on the good times, living it up is a state of mind
[Never give it up no, Never give it up no oh oh],

Down and dirty city, feeling outta place, Maybe you've ran outta time,
treats her like a lady, smile upon her face, Make up the last of the lines

Everybody needs some affection [Ah ah ah], Never shines [never shines]
gotta try [gotta try],
Wherever you're going,

Never give up on the good times, gotta believe in the love you find
[Never give it up no, Never give it up no oh oh],
Never give up on the good times, living it up is a state of mind
[Never give it up no, Never give it up no oh oh],

Never give up on the good times, gotta believe in the love you find [Never give it up],
Never give up on the good times, living it up is a state of mind
[Believe in the love that you find],

Hey now look around, pick yourself up off the ground,I say
hey now look around, pick yourself up off the ground [x3],
I said [Never give up] hey now look around, Pick yourself up off the ground, I say hey now look around, pick yourself up off the ground,

I said [Never give up] hey now look around, Pick yourself up off the ground, I say hey now look around, pick yourself up off the ground,I said [Never give up] hey now look around, Pick yourself up off the ground,
I said never give up [x3],

Never give up on the good times, gotta believe in the love you find
[Never give it up no, Never give it up no oh oh], Never give up on the good times,
living it up is a state of mind [Never give it up no, Never give it up no oh oh],

Never give up on the good times, gotta believe in the love you find [Never give it up],
Never give up on the good times, gotta believe in the love you find [Never give it up],
Never give up on the good times, living it up is a state of mind,
Never give up on the good times, living it up is a state of mind
[Never give it up no, Never give it up no].

now i have an annoying window on my screen that won't disappear! oh well, I'd rather have that than not-working internet! Anyway, i remember what i wanted to write. see i haven't seen "degrassi: the next generation" in a long time. however, i was able to catch it on friday night. ah, it was amazing! i love those shows, the realistic ones. not the stupid happy-pappy high school shows that the american channels produce! those shows always have a perfect ending! yah, like life works like that! come on, your problems are solved in 30 min or less? oh, and your problems aren't actual problems? yah, i DON'T THINK SO!!! anyway, as i was saying, i was watching "degrassi" and there was this AMAZING guy! seriously! now, i don't know if he's younger than us or even our age, but he kinda looked older than the other kids on the show. yah, he was gorgeous! i loved his smile! and he was tall and NOT scrawny, like a lot of high school kids. no offence to anyone! well, the sad part of this, was that he played a gay guy on the show, and he did kiss the other gay guy! oh well! a girl can dream she's with him, can't he? well, you never know, he might actually be straight in real life! AHHHHH! i hope i meet some amazing people soon! and well, in particular, a guy!

yay! there are new episodes of "radio free roscoe"! well, i've only seen one so far, but there are more coming! yay! i love that show, mmmmmmmm...... TRAVIS!!!!! hehe! i don't care that he's only like an inch taller than me, even though it does bother me at times! however, i do love his hair!

yay, we have the first 2 volumes of "family guy"! Well, my bro bought it like 2 weeks ago, but it's at my house! the only thing is, is that i've seen all of those episodes like 5 billion times, due to the fact that they are always on the tv!